Processing Heartbreak

Welcome back everyone! Hopefully you all survived the election. They'll be no political speak here - it's over, time for healing the divide in the US. Originally this was going to be a post on political/protest songs, but I don't think I'm up for that now. I shifted my thoughts a little after reading an article on Spin.com that listed the top 100 alternative songs of 1996 - because it's been 20 years and why not? I thought I might follow suit with my top songs of the mid to late 90's.

Then I started doing a little research for it and as I listened to some of these songs and discs I realized that they were bringing up some memories. Now we all know that music can bring you back to a specific moment in time, even make you remember smells, emotions, etc but it's always fun when these reminders catch you off guard.

As I've said before, I have been fairly obsessed with music all of my life. I can remember in early high school years just laying in bed listening to Judas Priest Screaming For Vengeance and thinking about my latest crush. Years later I can pull out that same record and still remember the feelings I had - music is a powerful force. So our post today is going to focus on the 90's but the twist is that it is all songs that I used to help deal with a pretty significant breakup in my life. Some of it was just things on in the background, some of it I listened to purposely to help deal with my feelings, but all of them make me think of 95-97. Sorry, no names will be mentioned (gotta protect the innocent after all) but if for some strange reason she actually reads this article, don't worry, I don't feel this way now....

Deftones - "7 Words" Adrenaline One of the first albums I bought right after the breakup. I needed something aggressive to counteract all of the alternative pop I was listening to while we dated. You can only listen to the Gin Blossoms for so long, after all. At any rate, the chorus spoke to me...

Garbage - "Stupid Girl" Garbage This should be fairly obvious...what can I say? I was angry and hurt...

Korn - "Ball Tongue" Korn Subject matter didn't always matter, and this one was particularly fun to shout along to in the car. It still is...

Chris Isaak - "Goin' Nowhere" Forever Blue My go to "sad" album. Hey, I was hurt as well as angry. This entire album was about Chris' own breakup, so it really spoke to me.

Nine Inch Nails - "Wish" Broken I was a huge NIN fan before I started dating her, afterwards some of the songs meant even more to me. This one is a rager from 92, but I was listening to a lot of bootleg copies of NIN shows at the time, hence it's inclusion here.

Rage Against The Machine - "Bulls On Parade" Evil Empire This record came out some 6 or 7 months after we had broken up. I was a big fan, and I was attempting some sort of reconciliation with her at the time, so it was on the car stereo a lot when I would drive to see her.

Fiona Apple - "Shadowboxer" Tidal I really like her voice and there are some really good torch songs on this album. I guess it played in the background during that time. Fiona went off the rails a few years later, but definitely pick up her first record - it's great.

Limp Bizkit - "Counterfeit / Stuck" Three Dollar Bill Y'all Don't laugh...haters love to jump all over this band and I certainly agree that later albums did not even come close to this one. I stand by this record - for me its a classic. And at the time these two songs really helped me to vent my anger over the reconciliation not going my way...

Prodigy - "Firestarter" The Fat Of The Land Starting to feel better about myself by this point, but still had my moments. This single was released well in advance of the album so I remember watching the video (remember those) a lot on MTV. This song just got me going....

Reel Big Fish - "All I Want Is More" Turn Off The Radio Just listening to the lyrics reminded me of my situation. Plus, a really good song.

Bloodhound Gang - "Why's Everybody Always Pickin' On Me?" One Fierce Beer Coaster I was well on my way to emotional recovery by this point. I kind of just wanted to include it because it fit the era. Plus, the middle breakdown part where they shout "The drummer from Def Leppard only has one arm" cracks me up every time.

There you go - my way of processing grief at the time. I'm sure there are lots more songs, including one I just remembered (The Toadies - Quitter "Rubberneck") but this is a pretty good list to start with. Enjoy the Spotify playlist below. Hope to hear from some of you as to the songs you used to get over heartache...

Current Listening: Dave Matthews Band Live At Red Rocks 8.15.95; MC5 Are You Ready To Testify? The Live Bootleg Anthology.

Until next week!!